Musings on Massive May Milestones

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May is a big month for me. May 2nd is my wedding anniversary – 1 year – yay! Then May 16th is the anniversary of Sang’s passing – not so yay.

Last year for the 16th I was in Indonesia for my honeymoon, so the day, while not lost on me, did pass me by. Sometimes it’s good to have distractions.

This year, and 2013 and 2014, were harder years in that I acknowledged and went right into the pain I was feeling. For me, sitting with the grief and letting it move through me, feeling all the feelings without judgment, is best. Not easiest, but best. I feel they can be processed that way.

It makes me kind of sad that I won’t be able to visit Sang’s grave this year. That was something I did.

It’s not that I want to be sad, or that I’m holding onto the past unnecessarily. I’m honouring what’s coming up for me right now. Grief comes in waves for me and can come out of nowhere. I’ll be driving in my car and suddenly tears will well up as a happy memory comes to my mind.

I find that people still don’t quite know what to say. That’s why I find grieving has been quite a personal journey for me.

My 1 year wedding anniversary on the other hand was very joyful! My husband and I reminisced about everything we did over the past year, which was A LOT. In our first year of marriage we moved to a different country. Bought a new home and sold our old home. Both got new jobs. That’s a lot of change for 1 year! We visit our favorite spots and dream about the amazing years to come.

But we did it! And I feel very strong as a couple for having navigated all that successfully.

So May is a month for fondly remembering and grieving my previous love, and celebrating and remembering my new love.

How the Akashic Records Can Help Mother Daughter Relationships

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While working on a relationship reading for a couple last week, I was reminded that relationship readings can be done for parents and children too. The picture to the left is of me and my mom when I was just born.

Ah being born… As a baby I had no idea what issues I’d get to experience as I grew up with my mom. No idea what our relationship dynamic would be. And also no idea until I studied Soul Realignment that I chose to incarnate with my parents knowing the potential for growth it presented.

As an adult, I know that my mom can push my buttons like almost no one else can! So much history… And likely not just from this lifetime.

Since my mom is coming to stay with us for a week soon, I’m feeling it’s finally time to do a relationship reading for my mother and I. It’s not just about randomly going in and seeing what shared karma and other blocks we have, it’s about setting my intention for what I want to create instead of what I’m currently experiencing.

So I’ll need to sit with that for a while. Really think about how I want our relationship to be now. Depending on what I find in the reading, I may or may not share it in another blog post!

 

Add a Little Zen to Your Life

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I really like sitting in silence for long periods of time. In day-to-day life it’s typically hard to find a “good” reason to do this, so attending events where many people sit in silence at one time together gives me an excellent opportunity to get in my silent time.

Last weekend I checked out the San Antonio Zen Buddhist Center’s Intro to Zen Meditation class, and it was lovely!

They have a peaceful little room where at least 10 of us learned the basics of Zen then sat and also walked in silence for a little over 30 minutes.

I’m not sure if there are different techniques used at different levels, but what we covered in the intro was sitting still for the allotted time and observing our breath. Stilling the mind through focus on the breath is a lot harder than you may imagine. I just love it when I’m able to calm my thoughts though!

The teacher read a cool quote from a book by a famous Zen monk about only being concerned with the exhale. Feeling like with each exhale, it could be the last breath you take in this life. Then, as the inhale happens automatically, being amazed and delighted that you are still alive.

Slightly morbid I suppose, but very interesting nonetheless.

Now that I’ve completed the intro class, I can go to the once a month 4 hour Sunday morning meditations! Very excited about that.

If you’d like to learn more about the San Antonio Zen Buddhist Center, check out their website at: http://www.sanantoniozen.org/

To bring a little Zen into your life right this moment, simply focus on your breath and keep bringing your mind back when it wanders, without judgment. Ahhhh inner peace…..

How to Use Your Soul to Get Unstuck

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There are moments in life when we need to get things done and we get SO in our heads that nothing seems to work.

Example: Today while designing my new business cards, my mind was telling me, “Must come up with perfect catchy new slogan. Must make sure the wording is perfect.” AHHHHHHH! Needless to say, I was not producing.

What I was doing was sitting there staring at my computer screen. Tick tock, tick tock.

So how can your soul possibly help you in these kinds of situations? Well, follow this process the next time you feel brain-dead or stuck and then YOU can tell ME how it works!

Step 1: Leave your head. I repeat. Get out of your head. Understand that your brain is trying its best and things just aren’t working out. So slowly breath and quiet it down.

Step 2: Drop into your heart space. Start sensing and feeling into the area around your heart in your chest. Notice anything you are feeling there. At first you may feel nothing and begin to get frustrated, and that’s ok. Keep doing it till things calm down. This takes practice, so put in the time and practice.

Step 3: Tune in to what your Soul, expressing itself through your heart energy, is trying to say. What message is it sending you? What words or ideas or images are popping into your consciousness now?

Step 4: Write them down. This is gold people. Straight from your Soul gold.

This method works for me and I’d love to hear how it works for you!

Love and light,

Twyla

Easy Way to Connect to Your Higher Self

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In my hand I hold a pendulum. It’s a beaut. Made of Carnelian, a crystal that grounds, restores motivation, stimulates creativity, and helps you trust and empower yourself. Seemed like a great choice for a pendulum!

Why am I holding a pendulum? What do I use it for? Why might you want to get one too?

Well….

This little guy helps me connect to my Higher Self, aka Soul. Why do I need a tool to do that?

Well….

There’s this little thing called the ego, and it likes to run interference between mind and soul communication. For a good reason – it wants to keep you safe. But maybe you don’t always want to stay in the same spot, and so some “scary” change will be needed.

So say you want to create a new outcome by taking new action… It’s not always easy to know what action would be the greatest expression of your Divine Wonderful Self. There’s a lot of other thoughts and ideas mucking about so your super soft intuitive voice can get lost in that. What you need is a way to cut through it all and get to the good stuff, and that’s exactly what a pendulum can do.

A decade ago I had my first pendulum and I did NOT know how to use it. I’d ask it super emotional questions and then freak out about the answers, sigh. Things have changed a lot since then. Well, it’s really only been the last 3 years I’ve used one pendulum for my Akashic Record work and another for my personal dowsing.

Now I find using my personal pendulum very beneficial. Questions paired with intentions are key. So first you get clear on what you want – your intention – then you ask questions about what actions will get you there. Remember to always ask if: 1) Your intention is aligned to your soul’s highest path and purpose, and 2) Your actions are aligned to your soul’s highest path and purpose. That’s kind of key…

Do not be in an emotional state or craving a certain answer when you dowse. That’s going to mess with your answers. Also, don’t be like me in my 20s – don’t be curious about all sorts of things and ask questions just for the sake of asking. That’s not productive.

If used properly and with care, your pendulum can become your decision aiding bff in no time : )

Questions, comments? I’m happy to clarify anything that’s not crystal clear!

The Separation Myth

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Something I’ve been grappling with for a while is this notion that is prevalent in many teachings that God/Source/Spirit/Creator of All That Is is separate from us. Specifically that it is above us in a hierarchical set up. And we are below. Being raised a Christian, this was part of what I learned when I grew up.

And for many years of my life I believed this. But then, after a particularly consciousness expanding meditation experience I had back in 2006 in Thailand, I 100% knew that I was not separate from Source. I experienced that every cell of my being held Divine intelligence and that I was Source/Source was inside me.

Despite having this tangible experience, I still did other meditations with teachers where I would “go up” to experience the Divine and then bring it “down” into myself. Which seemed odd. It was nice, but it didn’t really fit with what I knew to be true.

This became even more apparent when I studied Soul Realignment, because it made it clear that each soul is made from Source energy. So there is no separateness. My soul animates me, if it weren’t connected to my body, I’d be dead.

But still I struggled… Until I started studying ThetaHealing and one paragraph jumped out at me and made it all make sense. In ThetaHealing you “go” up to the 7th Plane to do the work. So the author explains how this both is and isn’t the case:

“When you go to the Seventh Plane using this process, the perception is that you are going outside yourself, out into the universe to the far reaches of the cosmos and through a portal into creation. In a way this is true, but not in the way you might think. Inside every person there is a tiny universe that is identical to the vastness of All That Is.

“So, what do we find inside ourselves? We find that inside each of us there is the Creative Force, Source and God. Infinity is inside us as well as outside. So where are you going when you go up and seek God? […] You are entering into the nucleus of an atom. Each time that you connect to the Creator, you go on a journey in the inner vastness. This journey connects you to your own atoms and also brings you to the awareness of the outside universe of infinite energy and to the realization that God is in every atom.

“So you go on a journey inside yourself to find the Creator-self that is inside you and outward to the cosmic consciousness.”

Pretty neat hey?! Now I can finally make peace with the whole going outside myself because it’s simply me connecting to the cosmic consciousness. Everything already exists in me, but it’s a handy way to feel into a more expanded experience and connection.

I hope that makes sense : )

If you have any comments re: your own understandings or experiences, please share!

Let it GO! How to Release and Refocus for Success in 2016

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If you don’t have a 4-year-old daughter, you may not have seen the movie Frozen yet. That’s ok. Disney always has great inspiring soundtracks for their movies, so I thought I’d include a song from this blockbuster as inspiration for this article on releasing. Please click on the link above to listen to the song, then continue reading : )

A lot can happen in a year, some good, some not so good. Keep all the happy memories, file the not so great ones away as lessons, and then let them go. Holding onto painful memories doesn’t do you any good – it just keeps you stuck. You’ll also want to release any behaviour and thought patterns that really don’t serve you any more. Otherwise, you’re bringing a lot o baggage with you on your journey into the new year.

A great way to travel lightly into the new year is to write down on a piece of paper all the things you are ready to let go of. Sit with it for a while, this isn’t meant to be a rush job. Be honest with yourself and look at what you created in 2015, as well as why/how.

Once you have a list that feels complete – you haven’t overlooked any major things – then burn baby burn. You are literally going to light this list on fire and watch it burn. Do so in a safe way, preferably outdoors. As you watch the flames engulf your list of things to let go, feel these things leaving your space and energy. Allow them to dissolve into nothingness.

After this is complete, take out another sheet of paper. This is a happy sheet. You are going to write down all your visions for 2016 on this paper. You don’t have to know how they will happen – dream big! Consider all areas of your life and make sure you set intentions for all of them. You are setting the foundation for an exceptional year. Fold up this piece of paper and put it somewhere you won’t lose it – like in a bedside table drawer.

Now every month, or more frequently if you feel so inclined, take out this piece of paper and review it. Stay connected to your dreams and intentions and see them come to life!

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How to Shift into Your Body & Soul

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As a woman, I live through my body, I experience things through my body, and quite honestly – I talk through my body. I will say things like “My body doesn’t want to eat that” or “My body needs more rest.”

It’s not all about the brain!

This can be a foreign language to some people, i.e., most men. And probably some ladies too. But ever since getting a copy of Women’s Bodies Women’s Wisdom many years ago, I started to speak Body-ese.

Now I’m reading a book called Feminine and Powerful, and loving it. There’s something called the dienten (by various Eastern traditions) that sits in the womb area. It sits there and is wise. And this wisdom can be tapped into.

I love it! And I believe my soul’s wisdom resides in my body, so when I listen to my body, I’m connecting to my divine knowing.

I had to clear a number of blocks before I could even stay in my body (as opposed to living 100% in my mind).

Do you listen to your body? How much time do you spend in your body vs your mind?

These are valuable questions to ask. If you find you spend a lot of time with thoughts, try some simple practices:

Observe your breath (yes it’s that easy, but at the same time not as easy as you’d think!)

Feel sensations in your palms and feet (these are the easiest areas to feel sensations in)

Place your hand on your lower stomach and breath into it (this is very calming, de-stressing, and grounding)

Try these out and let me know what you think!

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Dare to be Aware

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I’ve started to notice something very interesting. A new awareness has sprouted as the spring sun begins to shine and I’m seeing things in a slightly delightfully different way. Allow me to share.

Exhibit A: The past. Hello past. Before I make many decisions, I stop and check in with the past. Do you do that too?

Whether it’s, “Hmm, how should I treat this person. Stop. Past check: How did this person treat me before? Oh! Not great. Ok, I will then also not treat them that great.”

Or maybe, “How should I act in this situation? Stop. Past check: Well, I acted this way before and it seemed to go ok/kept me “safe”. Ok! I’ll stick with that.”

Do you notice what’s happening? As soon as the past check happens it’s like travelling from the present back in time. I’m no longer connected to how I’m feeling in the moment. I’m literally living in and perpetuating the past.

Do I want to keep doing this? Um, no.

Exhibit B: The present. Hello present! How refreshing you are and full of possibility!

What I’m noticing now is that when my mind habitually starts checking in with the past, something new happens.

There’s a little voice that reminds me: “You have a choice. Do you really want to base how you are going to act in the past? Or do you want to come from the present space of love and act differently?”

So at least two times now I’ve chosen love. And it’s fantastic! I would like to keep doing it.

Then slowly the past will fade and my amazing present will grow and grow and grow. And grow.

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How to Get Unstuck

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What do you do when you’re not sure what to do? You’re not sure if you’re getting guidance, you’re not sure which of your 5 ideas to pursue, you’re not sure how to move forward.

Answer: Do anything.

But what if it’s the wrong thing? I need to do the rightest thing! Is what your resistance mechanisms may say. Oh resistance, that’s very kind of you to point out, but also very paralyzing.

Taking any action will snap you out of stuckness. It’s more about doing something than what you do. There are worksheets out there to help you decide what to do first. And if you don’t feel like finding one, then simply pick at random one item on your to do list and do it.

Then celebrate that you did something! Do this 15 minutes a day and watch as your life starts moving in the ‘right’ direction. I say ‘right’ because when we’re in it, sometimes we can’t see the rightness. But look back in 5 years and it will all make perfect sense